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Why Fuck Normal Exists

(And why I had to burn my old life to build this one)

I’m not here to teach you how to play the game.
I’m here to show you how to burn the fucking thing down and build something real.

I’m Orson.

And for years, I lived inside a lie.
Addicted - to alcohol, to drugs, to pretending I was okay.
I wore the mask. Played the part.
Performed like a man who had it all under control.

Inside?
I was drowning.

I destroyed trust.
Sabotaged everything sacred.
Nearly lost the one person who stayed when I didn’t deserve it.

But I didn’t die there.
I chose to do the hardest thing imaginable:

Face myself.

I got sober.
I stopped running.
I rebuilt.
I saved my marriage.
And I met the version of me that had been buried under years of pain, pressure, and pretending.

But I didn’t stop there.

Because something in me knew -
There were still deeper layers that needed to be cracked open.

That’s when I found psychedelic therapy.
Not as a shortcut.
Not as an escape.
But as a cosmic fucking crowbar - the kind that tears through the illusion and doesn’t ask permission.

Through carefully guided journeys, I went deeper than any book, any therapist, any “self-help” hack could take me.

I met the parts of myself I’d buried in silence.
I died. I dissolved.
And I came back - clearer, softer, more fucking alive.

I saw what was illusion.
I saw what was sacred.
I remembered that this is all a game -
a wild, beautiful, temporary dream.

And the only thing that matters is truth.

Now?

I write, speak and create for the ones who feel like something’s off - but can’t name it.
The ones who’ve done all the “right” things… and still feel hollow.
The quiet rebels. The sensitive leaders.
The souls who know there’s more - and are finally ready to burn the old and become.

This space - Fuck Normal -
is for the seekers, the misfits, the beautifully lost.
The ones ready to feel again.
To speak without filters.
To stop performing…
and start living wide the fuck open.

You’ll find no fluff here.
No scripts.
No bullshit.

Just fire, presence, and a whole lot of soul.

This isn’t a blog.
It’s a portal.

Welcome to the deep end.
LFG - with love, always
BOON x